A KID, NOT UNDERSTANDING

A YOUNG KID NOT UNDERSTANDING WHY PEOPLE MAKE DECISIONS WHEN IT COMES TO HARD TIMES IN THEIR LIVES. I HAD TO STRUGGLE WITH FORGIVING MY MOTHER FOR GIVING ME UP TO HER SISTER WHO I NEVER KNEW WAS MY BIOLOGICAL AUNT. WHEN I FOUND OUT FROM SOMEONE TRYING TO GET BACK AT MY MOTHER I WAS SAD AND I FELT LIKE NOTHING LIKE I WASN'T IMPORTANT. I ALSO WAS A LITTLE MAD AT MY MOTHER (THE ONE WHO TOOK ME IN) FOR NOT TELLING ME ESPECIALLY SINCE I SEEN MY MOTHER BEFORE. I WAS CONFUSED WITH WANTING TO LIVE WITH HER AND HATING HER AT THE SAME TIME FOR GIVING ME UP SO EASILY. I DIDN'T UNDERSTAND THAT SHE WAS SICK AND THERE WAS NO OTHER CHOICE. I DIDN'T UNDERSTAND HOW LUCKY I WAS TO AT LEAST STILL BE IN MY BIOLOGICAL FAMILY. I DIDN'T THINK ABOUT THE FACT THAT 2 OF MY OTHER SIBLINGS WERE FAR OFF ACROSS THE STATE AND COUNTRY. I SHOULDVE FELT LUCKY BUT HOW COULD I WHEN I FINALLY GOT A CHANCE TO SEE HER AGAIN SHE DIDN'T EVEN KNOW WHO I WAS I CRIED ALOT WHEN I WAS LITTLE HOPING AND PRAYING THAT SHE GETS WELL. MY OLDEST BROTHER EXPLAINED TO HER WHO I WAS AND HE EXPLAINED TO ME WHAT WAS WRONG. SO SLOWLY BUT SURELY MY CHILDISH GRUDGE WENT AWAY BECAUSE I STARTED TO UNDERSTAND I HAD TO DEAL WITH THE FACT THAT THE DEVIL TOOK HER SOUL AND IT WAS HARD TO GET IT BACK WHEN HE GOT YOU LIKE THAT. I FINALLY COME TO REALIZE THAT GOD PLACED ME IN THAT HOUSEHOLD FOR A REASON WITH MY MOTHER WHO RAISED ME, EVEN THOUGH I'VE HAD SOME TRIALS AND TRIBULATIONS. I WAS BLESSED TO BE THE FIRST ONE OF HER CHILDREN AT LEAST WANNA TRY TO GO TO COLLEGE AND IM #8 OF 9 SO THATS BIG. ALSO I LEARNED THAT TRUTH HURTS BUT ITS HOW YOU FIX IT AND DEAL WITH IT THAT MAKES YOU FEEL BETTER SO IM HAPPY TO SAY THAT SHE HAS BEEN CLEAN FOR 2 YEARS AND ITS BEEN ALL ON HER OWN!!!!